I've spent much of my life in places I don't belong. I am a daughter of the king, yet; I've spent far too much time slumming it in the mud and the pit. I've also spent far too much time trying to shove my square peg self into a variety of social circles I don't fit.
How'd that turn out, you ask? As you guessed. Not so great! Actually, mess upon mess while my heavenly father is patiently whispering, "This isn't you. I know who you are. I know who I made you to be. Walk in the way of my will, my precious daughter."
Well friends, almost 40 years later, like the Israelites wandering in the desert, I am finally JUST STARTING to get it. God loves me, he has a plan for me, he even has a tribe for me of people who are running after Jesus as I am.
Have I found my tribe yet? No. Although, at least now, I am looking and PARTICULAR and guarded and hopeful and ready. I have some of my tribe and am open to finding the rest:) AND "MEAN"while....... GOD is showing me what I need and he will provide it.
So, goodbye world with all your allure of fun and fancy free things. I don't want you or your empty promises. It's all lies anyway. I want Christ and soul sisters and holiness and I will do whatever it takes to get there. WHATEVER IT TAKES!
Even if it means pruning away my father's idols or my mom's, giving up worldly habits and pursuits, foregoing nights out partying with friends, or whatever else comes my way. Because I would rather have one day in communion with Christ than a thousand in fellowship with the world! (THATS TWEETABLE) HAHAHAHA.
And believe me, this isn't easy... giving up things you love to do, etc.. But it is so worthwhile. What is found is so much more fulfilling and meaningful and lasting.
So while people drink and be merry and wonder if I lost my mind (again), NOPE, I not only have found more peace of mind than ever, I have found the balm to that hole in my soul and that balm is Christ.
If your wondering how to fill your soul hole, please reach out. I'd love to chat a while with you and share this love of mine.......That's also yours for the taking if you only ask!